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Denial
02:10
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Anger
05:03
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I’m losing touch within myself, it’s fucking killing me.
I had my future in my hands and let it slip away.
It went downstream into the gulf, the ocean swallowed me.
Cold and dark I could not breathe and hatred rose in me.
My anger towards myself, I’m my worst enemy.
No one understands what’s inside my blackened heart.
I don’t want to be with myself another fucking day.
Day turns into night, bleeds into weeks, destroys months, ends my years.
This wasted life is mine to bear.
I killed my dreams, I'm futureless.
There is no savior for me.
Weaving in and out of people’s lives grows old.
Giving so much of myself when no one stays.
I was worthless to you.
I am worthless to me.
I am worthless to me.
Day turns into night, bleeds into weeks, destroys months, ends my years.
This wasted life is mine to bear.
I killed my dreams, no more days.
Day turns into night, bleeds into weeks, destroys months, ends my years.
This wasted life is mine to bear.
I killed my dreams, I'm futureless.
I feel thirst for my own blood.
The pain inside had overwhelmed my mind.
Fell down a pit of apathetic thought.
Deep in the void I was spiraling down.
Fell into myself and the only thing left was rage.
The only thing left was rage.
The only thing left was rage.
Anger is pure.
Anger is pure.
Anger is pure.
I am not.
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Bargaining
01:30
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Depression
02:43
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Death
05:19
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From a cell inside my heart a void began to grow.
Decaying walls around me bled and clotted where they fell.
The din of silent darkness rose and festered through my corpse.
I’m a rotted remnant relic of a life I used to know.
Nothing more than a shell.
Cursed to live, hoping to die.
Death is a burden, life so much more.
No will to breathe, no time to grieve.
Hang the noose high, just one more night.
Pain will be brief, then eternal sleep.
My heavy footfalls hit the ground, counting down my life.
The last horizon to the west calls my wretched soul to rest.
I grab hold of my last friend and tie it round my neck.
One last sight, one last sound, and one last breath.
Nothing more than a shell.
Cursed to live, hoping to die.
Death is a burden, life so much more.
No will to breathe, no time to grieve.
Hang the noose high, just one more night.
Pain will be brief, then eternal sleep.
I want to find any reason not to jump.
But I can’t find the will to live, it’s strayed from me.
The world has burned, destroyed, and raped the best of me.
And now I want only to no longer see.
Clarity fills my head as I see the answer, death.
Nothing more than a shell.
Cursed in life, so close to die.
Just one more, one more step.
No remorse, last recourse.
As I jump, I drop fast.
Rope will burn, neck will snap.
No more life, no more pain.
I won’t see my body sway in the wind.
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Aren Hacobian Los Angeles, California
Extreme metal guitarist and drummer.
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